I am 30 years old and live with one girl roommate and my dog in the Nation’s capital. I’m wearing my blonde hair long, no bangs, but I do have layers around the face. I lost and gained weight this year, leaving me 40 pounds below where I started. I had the same job all year. I am single and have been for the year. I completed one marathon relay, one half marathon, two 5Ks, one swim meet, two sprint distance tris, and one international distance tri. I had my first “Did Not Finish” during an Olympic distance tri.
My greatest wants for 2009 were to be lighter in weight (I’m down 17%), debt (I’m down 8%), and fears (how does one measure this?)
My best moments this year: Being with Nikki at President Obama’s Inauguration, winning the first FIST match with “Fetch Rufus”, coming off the stage after an amazing DMG show at the DCAC where everything clicked and we were all in sync with each other.
My worst moment this year: Being so overwhelmed and stressed at work that I cried very ugly tears in front of my boss and her deputy. It wins the worst moment because I felt so powerless.
My proudest moment this year: Finishing Bassman Sprint under two hours and with a smile on my face. In fact, the whole blasted day was great! I bonded with my Z-mates, had enough energy after my race to offer course support, and I repaid the favor of countless others that have helped me finish a race when I thought I couldn’t take one more step forward by spending quality time with my friend Jacquie.
My happiest moment this year: Blowing out the candles on mine and Archie’s 30th Birthday cake. It was so wonderful to be surrounded by so many people that I love, including my friend Amber that came up from Louisiana.
My hardest moment this year: Learning that Charles had a stroke and then figuring out that I was the first person in my church family to understand how serious the situation had become. This is the closest I have been to death and it was beyond emotionally draining to help coordinate his care, put his household in order, and contact family members that he had not spoke to in over 15 years. It was also a life altering moment in time that has affected me in ways that are still to tender and vulnerable for me to blog about. I pray that the decisions I make today do not leave me alone at my death.
My worst decision this year: Falling back into bad habits due to the stress of my job.
My best decision this year: Moving in with Tara. She is an awesome and incredible friend and roommate.
My best purchase this year: My shiny red Dell computer
My biggest project this year: Losing weight
My greatest want for 2010: To let my light shine instead of letting my fear keep me in my current place.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” — Marianne Williamson